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"I understand that you would like to "really get it" - to feel, as I do, awake and free to live and die in each and every moment; to feel that "myself" is not a separate, freestanding being, but more like a flow composed of countless impressions, both conscious and unconscious, from which the faculty of mental self-consciousness confects a false sense of unity and permanence.

But what if you "really" get it already, and only elevate Robert's understanding and discount your own because you are expecting something "special" to occur when you really get it? That point hangs lots of people up. No one is coming around to pin a merit badge on you. No superpowers are conferred either. It's stark, this aloneness, and without fixed form, but beautiful."

Robert Saltzman, 'Depending on no-thing', p. 421